J.C. Ryle said that coming to vital Christian faith starts a lifelong quarrel inside a person: “You and sin must quarrel, if you and God are to be friends.”
Do you love God?
Does your love for God cause you to battle with yourself?
Ask God to draw your heart and mind and strength into sweeter friendship with Him.
Be ready, as He answers that prayer, to find yourself parting ways with yourself to grow closer to Him.
That is what spiritual growth is all about.
More like Christ.
Less like me.