Please pray for an important meeting I have this afternoon.
It is my evaluation.
I did a self-evaluation and each member of the elder board did one for me.
This afternoon I meet with a smaller group of elders to discuss the findings and conclusions.
I am looking forward to interacting with these men who love the Lord, love this church and love me.
The goal of this evaluation, for me, is pretty simple.
It comes down to this.
I am a vessel. I am an instrument for the Master’s use.
Jesus wants to work on this church.
He wants her to be more wise, ready, holy, loving and beautiful.
He has placed His hand on me to be His instrument in this work He is doing.
How can Jesus best use me to do His will in this church?
What should I stop doing because it is not useful to Him?
What should I do more of because it is what He wills to do through me?
How can I make the most difference in the areas where Jesus wants to use me?
The key question is not — what could I be doing?
A question with an unlimited number of answers is unhelpful.
The key question is not — what do the people in the church want me to be doing?
I would hope that their desires for me equal Jesus’ desires for me but this may not be the case.
The key question is not — what do I want to do?
Honestly (I know I cannot trust my own heart) but honestly I am moving past getting stuck in what I want to do/feel fulfilled in doing. My life is not my own. I am called to finish this course and leave it all on the battlefield for the One who enlisted me.
The key question is — what does Jesus want me doing as His instrument in this church?